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[02 Jan 2006|09:43pm] wellll.. we didnt go to sleep on new years eve..it was horrible.. ifelt dead the next day todayyy was a sAkS day - katie =( but we still had fun..we went to breakfast @ the usual place..too bad i dk the name ahah we played "detective" w. this old abandoned house haha it was freakin scary =) lol we checked it out b4 we went in .. we went to lechy..and drove around and stuff steph had the heeby jeebys? haha she was scared after we left the house .. it belonges to nellie ryder ..he/she is/was 92 when they left it .. peoplefinder.com = <3  ugh i dont feel like typing but it was a pretty fun day..i missed josh tho =( keeley made that icon i have<333 and i love it .. thanks again<3   overanalize x me: im pretty stupid TinkTiklesMePink: haha nno ur not TinkTiklesMePink: ur a bad driver but ur not stupid yupp ^ ^ she loves me   peace out fuckers 7 Danced like their superstarsWe can sing like superstars <3

happy 2Oo6 bitchesssssssssss [01 Jan 2006|03:17am] [ mood | ditzy ] [ music | lsldkjfslkdjfsldkjflkjsdlfkjskjfslkcjg ] its 2oO6!!<3 i guess thats exciting? haha yeahh nothing much is really going on but when is there ever anything going on? .. uhm try never.. welll ... xmas was good .. i went to my aunts house .. josh & jordan came there .. it was fun .. i got everything i wanted basically .. so =] yeah .. so its new years .. and sio josh vern & ray are here .. and its 3:19am .. there all sleeping here .. since were all losers and have nothing better to do.. were missing katie & stephanie & jordan & keeley & little josh*esp him .. a lot .. jordan & keeley are up at her house .. and katie & steph are home & lj..well were not gunna go tehre .. but i miss him a lot .. = [       so anyway: basic recap of tonite..would = me going to work 6-9..bullshit as usual on nights,,, no 1 came in so me steph rob & mike just messed around and played w. the loud speaker .. a few ppl came in .. then i bought a lotta food..and my mom picked me up ( she wouldnt let me drive cause it was snowing pretty bad) and we went and got sio .. and then when we got here josh vern & ray were already here .. soo yeah .. we played video games & watched movies & stuff..nothing very exciting .. ~~> hmm josh got this bright idea at 1:37am to go to 7*11..haha i dk why .. we were hungry.. ray didnt want to come .. so he stayed here & me sio vern & josh went..we pushed joshs car out of the driveway in neutral cause we didnt want to wake my mom .. haha .. yeah.. so that was uhm interesting..then we came back & ate..and watched dane cooke.. & i just put makeup on vernon...like i mean everything.. eyeliner ..maskara .. blush..eye shadow. & lipstick .haah it was cute..we took photos<3 ahahahahahhahahah yeah were increada bored..i also painted all the boys nails..now were watching the longest yard i think its called idk im not paying attention..were not planning on sleeping at all .. so were trying to keep ourselves occupied.. which isnt going too good..we might go out at 5am since me & sio just think thats a cool idea..haha i dk why but yeah................................. ok idk but i dont have work til wednesday<33333333333   well im out   pe@ce<3 We can sing like superstars <3

[24 Dec 2005|09:28pm] [ mood | excited ] hmm. so i havent updated in a while..but w/e .. ive been wanting to but ive just been way too lazy..but whajeb..so it xmas eve!!<3333 well uhm soo idkk ahha i dnt really remember anything thats been going on.. ive been kind of preoccupied by peoples rediculousness..well anyway friday in english my teacher was talking about people who have a napoleon complex..and im not gunna go into explaining what it is for those of you that dont know..but let me tell you that explains more then 1 person i know so well it should be illegal..its rediculous how people can think their so much better then everyone else and how they always have to get their way about everything..that just irks me.. well anyway..besides that.. everythings been going good.. im soo excited christmas is tomorrow<33 i love it .. i have to work today for 7 hours which felt more like 7 years it was horrible .. but im over it .. at least i dont have to work tomorrow so im going to my aunts house .. and my josh<33 and jordan are coming too .. = ] .. and my family that like i never get to see so im excited to see them.. and my aunt gave me part of my xmas present today cause she wanted me to wear it to dinner tomorrow lol .. shes so freakin cute..but its adorible..she got me this red tank top and a white sweater thing and earings i <3 it .. and my aunt told my brother she got him a taser haha but obviously she didnt since there illegal .. haha shes not so smart.... ughh anyway i dont have much else to write about so im gunna go finish watching blue collar comedy <3 since i love it     pe@ce<3         i love you josh<3333333 We can sing like superstars <3

no one comments me =[ probably cause no one reads this lol [18 Dec 2005|10:09pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | law & order SVU ] ok so im updating again.. because im increda bored..i only update this because i have no life haha and im always bored..and i can never sleep..im convinced i have insomnia..i dk im probably wrong =] so anyway..i had work from 3-9 today..it wasnt bad..it basically consisted of me & rob watching family guy for 5 hours or so...and im almost positive we convinced mike b. to keep the portable dvd player up and going even after xmas passes .. cause according to rob " we could make more money if people are able to buy it after xmas .. and we'd beat orangeburg(which is like mikes dream haha)" which actually means we can sit there and watch family guy and invader zim while we're working =-]]]  ...soo yeah it was increda slow today..rob was on photo & i was ringing..and mike was in the back somewhere..so we didnt have any work to do..and we were the only ones there casue steph called out sick .. and the pharmacy was closed after 6...i think we've watched every episode of family guy about 15 times .. no joke..i bought some pringles today and a arizone green tea<3 rob was like amazed that pringles were on sale..haha .. we ate those in about 5minutes...i had to vacume tonite hahah my favorite part of the job lol . i accidentally vacumed up a red rubber band and it snapped in half..so i pulled it out and threw it at rob .. and well let me tell you that was not a good idea haha after that for the rest of the night he proceded to whip me with it..it hurt rly bad im not gunna lie.. so i tied 3 rubber bands together and hit him back..we were fighting for like 30min in the front of the store & the costomers were all laughing at us..we got tired of that fast so we just watched family guy again..after work. i came home and talked on aim for a few minutes..then took a shower..and ate some soup..and came back on the computer..cause its my life.. josh isnt sleeping here tonite =[ im kinda upset .. haha im such a loser..but i miss him a lot..hmm i think he has work tomorrow so i probably wont see him..he stopped by a few minutes ago to pick up his clothes and watch from last night..=] i loooooooove him<333333 and now i miss him .. welppp im gunna go talk to my bff katie <3 then go to sleep pe@ce <33   joshua keith<33333333333333 i love u 3 Danced like their superstarsWe can sing like superstars <3

its funny how times change..people change [18 Dec 2005|12:54pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | beauty in the breakdown-the scence asthetic ] well i haven't updated in a while but it doesnt matter casue i cant remember anything that happened..so whatev.. i had work most of this week..friday i worked w. colleen rob d & mike g ..i absolutely love working w. them <33 we organized the storeroom cause basically it just needed to be done & ballsenack would never do it so we did =] it was fun too . up until the rose called me hahaha collen put it on speaker and she was yelling at me & mike g (the manager) was making fun of her ahh good times..so yeah i took out the garbage =] haha it was effin cold outside friday night too butt it was a fun time..you know its pretty sad we have this much fun at work ? wow .. im lame .. ok well anyway so after work i went home and went to sleep cause i was tired..even tho it was only 10pm but whatev..then i talked to josh on the fone at like 1:30 then went to sleep... sat.. i woke up early to drive my josh to work because his car broke down =[ so yeah we had breakfast then layed around awhile then around 8:30am i drove him over.. cause im just the nicest girlfriend in the world<3 ..so after that i went home & chilled out awhile then me & timmy went back over to nanuet to get robs xmas gift..cause he was my secret santa for work .. i dropped that off at cvs & picked up my gift .colleen had me ..which i had no idea...any way she got me a stocking w. yummmy  candy in it & a stuffed animal dog thing that could possibly be the cutest thing in the world=] and i love it.. so then i went home and waited for my bff katie to get done w. communtiy servive..she called at like 1:30 =] so i went and picked her up and we headed over to nanuet for the 3rd time in one day.. yeah .. we went xmas shopping <3333333 we bought each other sooo much lol we got these rad gothic babys omg there adorable <3 ha ..ughh i love her shes my best friend in the world<33333...siobhan my other best friend..was supposed to come but she wasnt allowed to b,cz her mom said shed get raped which is kind of ironic considering me and katie had these 2 mexicans follow us through the entire place..weird huh?..so we ran to my car..I HAVE A RAZOR IN MY PURSE!!! lmfao...so we left the mall because of disgusting ppl .. we went to posa posa for lunch<3 omg orgasmic..then picked up my josh<3 from work and headed over to the palisades..to meet up w. vernon keeley jordan and 2 of keeleys ffriends..but keeley jordan and her friends left like 10min after we got there =[[[[ it was sad..i made her stocking w. her & jordans names on them and well .. they were special looking haha but she didnt make fun of me..lol so me vern josh and katie stayed there awhile and shopped for every1 .. and went out to fridays for dinner.. omg and katie was pretending vern was her b/f and being like BABEE WILL YOU HOLD MY HAND?? hmm?? i wonder why they gave me two straws? want some soda babe?? haha i love her<33333 .. we saw sio & andy tehre<33 and stephy<33 love them .. we left at like 7ish or so and went home..katie and vern went home & me & josh went to cvs because i needed hydrocortizone..roberto adriana and jesse were working..i finally introduced myself to adriana after being an asshole and not for the past 2 days..i was preoccupied and just never got around to it according to rob which is very true im not generally a bitch like that..she seems very nice.. & im finally not the newest eprson there thank god<3... my josh slept over last night<333333333333 snugglingggggggggg<3 ughh i love him.. hmm  we went to sleep around 1 and i woke up at like 9:30 and woke him up around 9:45 b.cz i could not move at all .. so i just waited.... so i drove him to work at 10:30 lalalalalal ok i have work at 3 and this was longggg about basically yesterday...ill update soon pe@ce <3     i love you josh<3333 ur my lifeeeeeeeeeeeee 2 Danced like their superstarsWe can sing like superstars <3

[14 Dec 2005|09:49pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | beauty in the breakdown-the scence asthetic ] ..today was boring.. school & work...i fell asleep in  math 3 times =) lol i was so tired today..i didnt even feel like going to work today but i did..1st i went over to joshs for like 20 min tho cause i really wanted to see him.. then iwent to work at 3..and yeahh .. i didnt even do anything at work today except i did photo but there wasnt too much to be done..so basically i watched family guy for 6 hours..cause we have that portable dvd player display up for xmas so some1 brought in family guy to play on it .. idk who tho.. but thats what i did at work today =) exept for the last like half hour cause rob took it away from me cause i was 'slacking' =( haha what a loser .. after work i came home and had soup =) again haha story of my life and now im just in a really bad mood cause every1 is juss pissing me off .. and my mom is screaming at my fucking brother b.cz he insists on falling asleep on the couch every fucking night instead of juss going up to his room cause hes a fucking asshole and he juss stays there evey fucking night and she yells about the same thing to him every night and he can never juss listen .. its so annoying..omg he wont fucking leave ... now im yelling at him b.cz she juss went to walk my dog and said he better be upstairs when she gets back..which he wont be...ughh...whatevvvv..i juss fucking hate listeing to them yell about the same shit every night ok now im juss really being bitchy but i dont even care =)   anyway . some happy stuff mayb? .. yeah okkk soo xmas is soon =) i have to work probably tho =( oh well ill juss be spending some of my xmas w. my 2nd family<3 haha i love cvs .. i wont even lie..soo anyway things w. me & josh are absolutely perfect<333 .. still <33 .. ughh goddd i love him..i think were going to the mall on saturday so i can get him his xmas gift =) ... which i have no idea what to get him...hmm? any ideas?? pleaseeee...   ok well im gunna go watch a movie..mayb the nightmare before xmas? i dk hmm yeahh night<3   We can sing like superstars <3

[13 Dec 2005|07:58pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | beauty in the breakdown-the scence asthetic ] today i had no work = ]]]  yayy .. i didnt do anything too exctiing tho .. but when do i? .. yupp never .. soo i went to school..& i woke up way to late today so i looked like shit all day but whatevvv i dont even care..yeah school was alrite..i started painting my Sally sculpture =]     yeahh then after school i took sio to cvs to apply .. but they already hired someone else so im not sure if theyll still be hiring .. =[ i rly want her to work w, me buuttt maybe she will ... well seeeeeeee.. but she broke the machine haha not rly but it did break so she couldnt apply..so we went and rented moulin rouge <33 best movie ..like ever .. yeah..so we watched part of that then ate dinner ..cause my gpa cooked chicken parm for us <333 =] yummmmmmm .. then we went back over to cvs and she applied cause the machine was all fixedd then i dropped her off home and picked up my brother and now here i am =] .. lol josh is supposed to come see me .. i dk if he will .. irly hope so i miss him a lot .. im such a loser .. but i dont care i love him<3..   every1 go on my myspace and listen to the song cause its amazing<3333333   and yeah just so every1 knows i dont tell josh fucking everything.. i know theres some things people dont want me telling and im not gunna..yes i tell him everything about me because honestly hes one of the very few people i completely trust .. but i  DO NOT tell him other ppls bussiness so SHUT THE FUCK UP you dont know what your talking about..k thanks&hearts; and i know i sound like a bitch but you know what i dont even care .. if ur gunna say something make sure you know its true b4 you say it and im  not sorry for being a bitch about this .. i wont even pretend to be.. some people just need to seriously get there facts straight BEFORE they open their fucking big mouths<3   now that thats out in the open =] im gunna go shower & wait for my josh to come over<3333   peace fuckers&hearts; We can sing like superstars <3

=) my mood icon is rad [12 Dec 2005|09:46pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | watching titanic<3 ] blahhhh whajeberrs ... today is monday which = school = boringgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg like a lot..hmm soo i went to school... nothing too great happened...i started swimming in gym today =( but i dont have to do it since i have mono so i just needa do a report or something like that...hmm..Arts day is soon in school..= /   ehh idk about thattt im almost finished with my project for sculpture i just need to paint it ..its a paper machett thing of sally from the nightmare b4 xmas..and for drawing class im not sure what im displaying but i guess my teachers gunna tell me .. w/e .. hmm..so after school i picked up sio and we went xmas shopping i got a few people their gifts =) and i still need to get a few more also but well see when i can...i might be going to the mall tomorrow w. josh<3 i hope but probably wont happen...i have to take sio to cvs to apply for a job anyway  la la la lala la la la la la la la la im in a gooooooood mood <33 .. we also went to TOYS R US today my joshua was working i picked up a present for my little cousin jeremy & got these cute little xmas stocking that say amanda & josh .. im hanging them in my room lol .. im a loser i know.. so then we had to leave cause we both had to be home..so i came home & ate some soup =) i love soup =) sooo yeah and now im here .. im watching titanic <3 lol its on HBO i el oh ve ee this movie ..   so im gunna go watch that......cause im lame .. basically .. haha my favorite part is on ..   peace gangsters   2 Danced like their superstarsWe can sing like superstars <3

lalalallaa [11 Dec 2005|11:14am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | xmas music<333333 ] lalala..im soO happy..& i dont really know why? but i dont really care either... hmm . ok.. so yesterday i got up early..and i was talking to steph.. and we were both pretty bored & hungry soo i went and picked her up and we went to the diner for breakfast..and it was really good..then we went back to my house and she helped me clean my room<33 omg i love her sooo muchh shes god . lol . it looks sooo good now.. i actually have a floor..but she had to leave b4 we finished so she hasnt seen it yet. then i went and picked up katie and she helped me finish up my room<33 i love her tooooo.. then we went over to the mall to meet up w. josh<3 jordan keeley & little josh .. and josh took me to pick out my christmas present<3333 omg i loveee it its soo pretty<3333333333 hes the best everrrrrr..i couldnt even describe how much i love him...so then the boys & keeley left and me and katie ate dinner & did some xmas shopping that actually got us no where cause we didnt get anything really except more stuff for my room haha so yeah well i did find siobhans gift but i didnt buy it casue there was no one in the store haha .. w/e im going back tomorrow or tuesday probably to shop a bit.. then we left the mall and went over to my aunts house cause my family was there putting up xmas decorations..so we stopped by and talked to them for a while .. they were all making fun of me cause i have mono..and josh doesnt.. asking me who else ive been kissing..lol but yeah so then we left there and i took katie home so she could go to her lover jimmys <33 lol their so adorable .. im soo happy that shes happy.. then i went down to DMV and met josh vern jordan & keeley..and then little josh was allowed out so we went to get him..then went back and just watched them skate..then me & keeley were cold so we decided to go to dunkin dougnuts..and me being stupid didnt go to the one right across the street i went to the one by my houe and well it was closed .. so that was gay..but w/e then we went back to my house and waited for josh to pick us back up b.cz i couldnt take my car back out after 9.. soo then we went back to dmv and ate at the buffet..then watched them skate more..and we got cold again so we went in shoprite and bought 2 kinds of red nail polish and chocolate milk..haha..and baretts that we know every1 is jealous of...lol soo me & keeley sat outside the buffet watching them skate painting each others nails lol ... were pretty cool...then me jordan keeley & josh went back to josh & jordans and just chilleddd....and yaehh then josh brought me home around 1 cause my mom was being gay & wouldnt let me spend the night there.. =( i was upset...but he stayed at my house til about 2:30 then went home and .. i went to sleep after he called.....and today i have work @ 4 =( i dont wanna gooo .. but w/e ... & im decorating for x-mas<3333333 i love christmas soo muchhh   haha wow.. this was a long entry..im gunna go do some xmas decorating now<333     i love you josh<3333333 4 Danced like their superstarsWe can sing like superstars <3

[09 Dec 2005|01:58pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | the scence aesthetic - beauty in the breakdown<3333 ] well.. i haven't updated in a day or so..but not much has happened anyway..yesterday i had a feild trip to the bowling alley..haha it was fun i guess we got back in time for 8th period so that was annoying but w/e then i went home and i was gunna go over to see josh for a little but he wasnt home...soo i   went back to work yesterday too.. finally .. it was actually a fun day at work.. haha . uhm well i didnt even do that much work.. cause well me & steph never rly do but yeahh .. we had a snow day today =] so i got to sleep..thank god .. but im still tired .. i dk why .. i guess from the mono but wwhatevv.. i attempted to clean my room today haha but that never really works..im such a procrastinatior..i went up there and moved my vanity out and down to the basement.. and then picked up a few things off the floor and then gave up..i should really go back and finish but i dont want to..i seriously cant even see the floor =[ ha.ha. .. it snowed a lot like 8 inches or so.. my street waasnt plowed so my asshole neighbors were all out there with snow blowers going up and down the street . lol it was funny . wow . people piss me off .. sometimes i dont ughh i dont know . but some people need to grow up . like now anyway . im bored . i have work in an hour . ughh 3-9 today . i dont really feel like going today im way too tired . but ohh well . i need gas too and i have no money haha sounds good . ok well im done for now i have nothing else to talk about really pe@ce out homieessss <333 i love you joshhhhhhh We can sing like superstars <3

lalalalalalalalalalalalaaala<33333 [06 Dec 2005|08:22pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | the tv ] hmm..well todayy..lets see..i went to school..normal, blahh.. pretty boring..nothing exciting really happened today in school at all so yeah.. well after 6th period the entire main hallway smelled like i dont even know how to describe it .. it was NASTYYYYY i thought i was gunna die smelling it..   anyway after school i came home and sat around til like 3ish maybe? then siobhan called me and i went and got her & then katie also and we went over to andreas to see her xmas stuff lol and naomi was there .. then nikole came by andreas cause she got her braces offf!! soo i wanted to see her beautiful teeth haha..then after that me sio kt nikole and naomi just stayed at andreas for awhile then we went over to taco bell.. again..haha story of my life .. so we ate then joshua<3 called me and told us to come over to stony point el...so we went over there..and he was there skating with vernon jordan and lil josh so we watched them and sang along w. their music haha for awhile then they got kicked out so we left also..nikole went to drop andrea & naomi off and then had to go =[ so me and siobhan and katie drove around aimlessly .. what else is new? .. haha then decided to go look at xmas lights which lasted for about 5min til vernon called to hangout again..so vern josh<3 jordan me sio and kt all went and layed around in my house for awhile..and fern gully was on<3333333 but the boys wouldnt let us watch it =[ lol then the boys left and i brought sio & kt home and picked up my brother and we went home and ate..cause idk my mom out of no where suddenly wants us home for dinner all the time and for us to all eat as a family... soo we do.. whatevvvv its cute i guess haha i dont knoww .. soo yeah im just really bored now and very very tiired.. hm i have to go to laurie tomorrow..at 4 so i probably wont be going out since i dont know i just probably wont .. so maybe ill clean my room since its rediculously messy and i cant even walk in there anymore..haha yeahhh defff time to clean it ... ok well that was pointless and i bet your bored...y are you even stilll reading this? haha i bet no one is ... ok well ill update again whenever...<3   <3333 pe@ce crackheads     i loveeee josh<3333333333 2 Danced like their superstarsWe can sing like superstars <3

9.16.o4<3333333333 [05 Dec 2005|08:42pm] [ mood | dorky ] [ music | shimmy shimmy quarter turn - hellogoodbye ] hiii crack heads...hmm so today...lets seee... well i went back to school today =] i was soo happy to finally be out of my house..ughh you have no idea..so yeah i didnt miss much as far as i know so far cause idk nr is retarted .. except for gym since i cant play for 2 weeks or more i have to write this medical report on volleyball and mono? lol weird but w/e my teacher just told me to copy and paste it soo thats cool w. me .... so yeah anyway..today was officially one of the weirdest days of my life..but whajeb..hmm soo after school i came home and like 2 seconds after i walked in the door my mom called.. and basically told me i wasnt going anywhere..which i said was total bullshit because she told me the night b4 after id gone back to school id be allowed out.. whatevvvvv...so i was in a bad mood then and even b4 that cause i really just hate when it snows now because the snow was like me & my dads thing and hes not around anymore..well physically..so it just upsets me beyond comprehension..it just gets me so upset that he died.. i hate it i miss him more then anything in the world.. even tho it was hard when he was alive... and christmas was always his favorite time .. he always made sure to get me and my brother that one gift we wanted that my mom wouldnt let us have without her knowing .. ughh im soo upset now...anyway so i just went up to my room and layed down listening to christmas music in the dark for about an hour or so..then siobhan called me & i talked to her a little..then.. my mom came in and told me i could go out as long as i didnt go crazy with it.. cause she doesnt want me to relapse..& whatevvv so i told katie i was coming to get her for dinner .. and we went out for awhile.. to wendys and taco bell and then just around the river<3 cause we love it .. then we went to my joshs<3 house and saw him before he went to work.. i swear to god its like were married already..i walked in and he was like im leaving to go to work..meanwhile its 5:30 he doesnt have work til 6:30 so im like uhm u have an hour? he was like SHIT  i forgot i start at 6:30 today not 6 .. haha yeah thats pretty bad.. whatevvvv i love himm sooo muchhhh ... ughh yeahh ok soo i lefttt there and we went to get my brother and stuff & katies lil brother & sister but they werent there lol soo then we went back to my house and watched A CHRISTMAS STORY<3 lol cause shes never seen it and well shes just seriously deprived haha so yeahh then she left around 8 and now im kinda bored hmm... &&&since everythings amazingg with josh im guna talk about it .. haha. not like anyone cares but hes amazingg and perfect and i love him soooooo muchh .. omg we have been soo perfect lately i love it ... uhhh =] im so happy .. i never want to loose that boy .. i swear to god hes the most amazing thing that ever happened to me..adn the things he says to me =] omg there soo cuteeeeeeeeeeee ok so basically before i continue to make an ass of myself im in love with joshua keith hernandez hes my lifeeeeeee( duh ) and yeah so thats that hmm so tomorrow hopefully ill get to hangout w. siobhann my loveee cause i still didnt get to haha i think i got her sicklyy and i feel badd .. katie too .. ughh im a horrible person lol so yeahh ... ok im done for now.. ill probably update soon again..<3   peace bitchessssssssssssssss   joshua<333333   His  | favorite | time of year was always Christmas, We'll reminisce about the days gone by,            Oh  how I wish that he was still here with us,    My memories with him will never die, rip daddy <|3 i love youu     2 Danced like their superstarsWe can sing like superstars <3

siobhans sining to meeeee lol [04 Dec 2005|09:21pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | siobhan singing to meee <3 ] hmm i havent updated in a while but thats probably cause im not that interesting and ive been sick since 4ever ..so yeah i didnt know what was wrong with me and i was sick for like 2 weeks or so..so my mom took me to the doctor and they did a strep test or w/e and checked my ears for an infection but i didnt have either so i just went home and took advil then i wasnt getting any better so i went back to the doctor and they did the same tests over again..and still came up negative soo i just went home again .. so then my doctor suggested that i go for a blood test cause they couldnt figure out what was wrong with me .. so turns out i have mono.. = [ its horrible .. i hate it .. seriously never get it ... but im feeling much better now.. my doctor put me on these steriod things and there helping a lot..so thats good.. anywayyyyyyy.. i get to go back to school tomorrow .. which im actually happy about cause i need to get out of my house .. ive been stuck here for 2 weeks..cause ive been sick ugh its horriblee..   butt ppl have been visiting me<33 lol on friday katie and steph visited me .. and then saturday nikole did .. then today she did again ... and then later on josh<3 and katie did ... i love themmm sooo muchhh<33 ..and siobhan was supposed to but she wasnt allowed =[ i was sadd lol i havent seen her since like 4everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr but tomorrrrow i will and were hanging outttt - im excited im not gunna lie .. so yeah katie left at like 6 to go home .. and josh stayed and i loveeeee him soooo muchh<333 we had like nothing to do soo he proceeded to play american wasteland for like 5 hours lol not rly just til katie left .. then we decided we were tired soo we went and layed down in my increda comfortable bed<333 and took a napp for like everrr errr i loveee laying with him<333 its the best everrrr .. hm so then my mom woke us up to tell me she was going to pick up my brother .. boo .. soo we went downstairs and had soup & toast lol it was freakin goood .. then this dawsons creek thing was on soo i watched it w. my mommyy &  joshua played video games w. timmy .... then he left at like 9 cause he had to pick up vernon from work & i was supposed to go but yeah welll  iim not allowed cause of fuckin mono.... FUCK MONO .. i hate it  hmm i dk what else to write about cause im boring ... im on the fone w. siobhann cause i loveeeee her<333 a lott i might addd... and also i fucking love ashley more then life cause she made my live journal all pretty <333 and basically shes the best ever for it .. yeahh be jealous.. soo im done.. ill update again.. probably tomorrow cause i kinda like writing in this thing again<3 lol cause im a loser like thatt & yeah katie fuck assholes babe .. seriously im gunna fuck up some1 ahhahahahahaha fuckin dick whipped shits .. whatever your too good for this shit... best friends forever babee<33 emoss haha i love youu peace bitchess     i love joshua keith hernandez<3333333 hes my effin lifeeeeeeeee 2 Danced like their superstarsWe can sing like superstars <3

[03 Dec 2005|11:00pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | Nirvana ] I LOVE YOU MANDA HOPE YOU LOVE YOU JOURNAL NOW=) I MISS YOU ANYTIME BABE We can sing like superstars <3

i love josh i love josh i love josh i love josh<3333333333333 9.16.o4 [24 Nov 2005|11:53pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | fresh prince of bel air ] thanksgiving <3333333333 yummm lol im weird but yeah sooooo like yesterday i dont even remember what i did so whatev i had work til 8 then went out 4 a lil after saw my old bfffffffffffffffff<33 which i missed a lot.. im not gunna lie & thennnn  i picked up josh<33 from work @ 10:30 andddd he slept over<3333 &&& i think we watched tv i dr maybe a movie whatevvvvvvvvvvvvvvver ....  we went to sleep at like 1 i think ... or 2 idr .. wow i dnt remeber a lota stuff.. hmm so i woke up at like 9 to watch the parade which i didnt so it was totally pointless... and i was bored awake all alone.. so i woke up josh<33 .. at like 10 tho i was nice .. kinda .. hmm so then we layed around til like 11:30 cause i had work at 12 so i had to leave =( it was gayyy i didnt want to .. so i left and he stayed and helped my family w. thanksgiving shizz i guess i dk so yeah i had work which was kinda pointless cause i dont think i did anything.. except let like 357653354 ppl into the freakin bathroom cause i dk i guess every1 from fuckin jersey happened to stop at cvs for a pee break .. haha whatfreakinever... soo yeah then i put up sales signs =) o mann perks of cvs..hmm my managers son was there today..what a freakin cutieee.. hes 8...and adorable... anyway .. so i left work at 4..and came home & turkey .. food and it was goooood .. <3333 rly good .. then dessert and stuff tv w. my family .. then my aunt came and left haha yeah uhm so josh was playing video games w. my brother for like 8 hours so i was bored.. so i decided to watch them.. then my brother left .. so i watched josh then we layed around & i brought him home at like 8:30.. i dont like him not having a car.. cause he has to leave early..fuckin junior lisenses suck...soo yeah now im all alone cause he didnt stay here tonite.. cause he wasnt allowed .. thats garbage....................i miss josh<33333333 =( a lot ... and i wanna go to sleep...but i cant cause hes not here .. so im lonely..and im waiting for him to call me back.............................booooo.......... yay for no work tomorrow and seeing my bfff siobhan..and i think katie tooo <3 goddd i love them...and sat .. a lil old time bfff time w. liz hopefully? ughh today was the 1st snow of the season & the 1st year i wasnt w. liz for it .. in like 8 years... ughh man does change suck.. but yeah things seem to be getting better now..... i dont even think im guna get to see josh tomorrow =( thats garbage... (haha sio made me say that) yeah so thats gay cause he has work =(       ughhhh yeah so im gunna go call joshua hernandez<3333 and then go to sleep <33   i love josh hernandezzzzzzzzzzz<333333 2 Danced like their superstarsWe can sing like superstars <3

[15 Nov 2005|09:28pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | sjhfksjhdfkjhsdf ] hmmm lately i ve been on the end of my rope w. everything, its rediculous, it feels like everythings falling apart..  well see normally im a pretty happy person, dispite what you read in this thing cause it seems i only write in here when i feel like bitching about something, which is true, anyway though normally im generally happy but lately everything is just getting to me.  idk why or w/e  but yeah so0 kelsey asked me to go up to her house & to a concert on friday which is completely awsome cause  im thinking i need some time away from everyone and just this town in general anyways so itll be good to be up there for a day, if everything works out and i do go that is .. i ve been thinking lately about how much things can change in just one year. its kind of amazing if you really think about it, you know? so much has changed in my life since last year, and im not complaining about all of it because some of it was a good change. i do miss my old life but i would never go back to it.  hmm so at work lately ive been talking to rob & rob a lot and theyve really got me thinking about a lot , there very confusing people. but i do understand a lot of what their talking about. i actually like working, retarted as it sounds, it keeps my mind off a lot and gives me time to myself to just chill and think about what i really have to think about, and the people i work with are awsome too, it rediculous how people can get to you that you never thought would or that you can get sick of people you never thought youd get sick of .. as of now college cant come soon enough .. i freakin cant wait for it .... hmm so enough of my bitching .. anyway .. jimmy crashed his PURPLE minivan hahaha god i love that kid .. poor thing isnt allowed to drive now =(   i serisouly cant believe i just met him this year lol hes one of those ppl i feel like ive known forever.. anyway.. i love siobhan katie and stephanie<33 a lot lol more then life cause there my best friends and well duh..and kelsey.. hahahaa that girl is my life & i love her & shes the best & i loveeee nikoley <33 and how we crash our cars hahaha O YEAH SOME1 FUCKIN HIT MY CAR & NOW I HAVE NO TAIL LIGHT =( haha hmm? you know what .. i wish there was no such thing as breaking someones heart.. its a really reatarted concept if you think about it  hmm but thats just my thoughts .. like how you can love some1 so much but just like you end up hurting them anyway? thats so fucked up and even though you know your meant for some1 you might not be at the time your together like its soo stupid .. godddddd you should just like find who your meant to be with when your like 30 and can marry them & everything lol .... im retarted i know but ppl make me think about stuff like that... ok so0 now that ive completely made myself sound like an asshole im gunna go look at some quotes cause i havent in a long time <3   josh<3             yeah i just saw the freakin cutest commercial everrrrrrrrrrrr it was an applebees one and yeah well it was cute.. it made me cry haha     <|3 6 Danced like their superstarsWe can sing like superstars <3

[27 Sep 2005|03:18pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | fall out boy - xo ] What does your name mean? uhh idkk lol How old are you? 16 How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?)? depends on who im with  & what the situation is.. Describe yourself in 5 words. tall .. weird.. emotional .. romantic..&? idk what are your worst qualities uhh i get jealous a lot way to easily What are your best qualities im nice? lol idk How long does it take you get get ready in the morning not long like 20min haha ~SLEEP~ Do you dream at night? yes Do you remember your dreams? sometimes Describe one. i dont remember What time do you go to bed usually? umm like 10:30 What time do you wake up normally? 6 What time do you wake on weekends? like 11 or 12 Do youfind waking late nice or annoying? uh both lol it depends on the day do you sleep with one pillow or two? three ~SCHOOL~ Do you like school? yeah most of the time Why/why not? cause i get to see ppl Whats ur fave subject? art Most hated subject? umm english i guess Do you have a fave teacher? chaiet but i dont have him nemore lol Ever had a crush ona teacher? uh no Are you a maths/science person or an english/drama person? english/drama ~FRIENDS~ Do you have heaps of friends?  nopee & i like it like that Do you have a best friend? nopee Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? guys Do you ever get annoyed at any friend? yeah a lot Have you ever lied to a friend? probably. Have you ever stolen a friends boyfriend/girlfriend? um no .. i dont think so   ~FAMILY~ Do you like your parents? yes. Ever run away from home? ive tried Ever thought about it? sometimes Do you have any siblings? one brother If so, do you like or get annoyed with them? sometimes How old are they? timmys 13 If not, do you mind being an only child? - - - - - - - - Do you feel your parents spoil you? yeap i kno she does Do you not get along with any of your family? no i get along w. mostly everyone Do you have big family get togethers ever? yesssssss & i love them ~RELATIONSHIPS~ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yess If so, are you in love with them? yess Do they love you? yes How long have you been together? over a year Most romantic thing theyve ever done for you? idk lol Do you have a crush? uhm i guess? If so, are you in love? just went over this Do they know you like them? yes Is it serious or playful? serious? How long have you liked them? ... Ever done something stupid to impress them? no Have you ever experienced unrequited love? haha yeahhh Do u find it romantic or hurtful? both i guess Even know what it is? lol yes i think so ~Sex~ Ever had sex? yea believe that a person shouldnt have sex before marriage? obviously not Believe in casual sex? eh no not rly i think its kinda gross but w.e floats ur boat When do you plan/when did you lose your virginity? um last yr Did you regret it? i dont regret things .. but no ~Religion~ Do you have a religion? not rly Do you practice it i.e go to church? not really Do you believe in God? yes Jesus? yes Satan? yes Heaven? yes Hell? no If you died tomorrow what do you beleive will happen to you? idkk lol Does death scare you? .not at all ~Morals~ Have you ever been drunk? yes taken drugs? yes stolen? yes shoplifted? yes tried to commit suicide? n Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend? no gotten into a fight? noo are you more innocent or guilty? ususally innocent lol Would you date a drug addict? ughh probably not cause i dk lol i just dont think i would. have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict? um kinda Are you racist? nope Are you discriminatory to anyone? uhh dont think so Have you been a hypocrite in the past? um i still am Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings? open ~Media~ Do you watch tons of tv? kinda i guess How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months? like once i think Do you listne to the radio often? all the time Do you read the newspaper? no Do you read magazines? yes Are you a couch potato? um kinda not rly Do you use the internet too much? yeaaaaaaaaaaaahhh ~Music~ Whats your fave style of music? rockkk Do you play an instrument? no Do you sing? yeah & baddddddddd Whats your fave band? right now.. fall out boy i guess Why? cause i like them? Have you met them before? noo0. Name 3 cds that youve bought in that last year. i dont even kno Why did you buy them? cuz iwanted them? ~Sport~ Whats your fave sport? baseball Whats your fave sport to watch? baseball & football Do you have a fave team of any sort? no Do you play a lot of sport? nope ever won anything for sport? never rly played ~perosnality~ Are you funny or serious? in between Creative or not? creative Logical thinker or lateral thinker? umm logical? Are you outgoing or shy? shy Are you lazy or active? depends Have you ever been hyperactive? umm i guess Are you a naturally hyperactive person? nopeee ~Looks~ Are you happy with the way you look? sometimes..? What would you change? nothing Do you wear makeup regularly? yeah Do you have a large wardrobe? no im plainnnnnnn ~Money~ Do you have a job? no Do you like it? ......... Are you a saver or a spender? spender Do you work hard or slack off? depends Have you ever been fired? nope In trouble at work? no Made a major mistake? umm idk Ever had money stolen from you? probably Are you always broke? yessss ~embarassing moments~ Your all time most embarassing moment? ummm.. idk? Ever snorted drink out your nose? nope. Ever giggled like an idiot?  yeah Ever embarassed yourself and pretedned nothing happened? yes Ever tripped in front of someone you liked? lol yeah Ever said soemthing really stupid? all the time Ever snorted while laughing?  lol yeah Ever fallen off a bed? lol yes.. Ever sleepwalked? i dont think so Ever sleeptalked?  probably ~Memories~ Whats your best memory? bermuda 04 Worst?  when my dad & gam died =( Whats the wierdest memory you have? i dk Do you have a good memory?  yeah Whats the coolest holiday you remember having?  idkk 3 Danced like their superstarsWe can sing like superstars <3

i guess you got what you wanted..what about me? [26 Sep 2005|07:02pm] [ mood | confused ] ppl are retarted in case you dont know...how is it you tell your 'best friend' the only way you can 'get over her' is by not talking anymore..at all? seriously..like what is that?   w/e idkk i dont get ppl .. honestly they make absolutely no sense to me .. but whateverrrrrr .. do what you want ..     all i ever wanted was to make you happy..i can only do that by stepping aside..i just have one favor to ask of you..remember me. - family matters  ^i kinda like that & it explains stuff a little? maybe .. idk ^     but yeahhhh im done now <|3 byee 1 Danced like their superstarsWe can sing like superstars <3

<3 [17 Sep 2005|03:01pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | dawsons creek <33 ] im rly tired..i cant sleep nemore i dk why .. somethings wrong w/ me .. w/e .. yesterday was me & joshs 1yr anniversary<3.. he took me to dinner & got me flowers<3 lol it was cutee .. lately ppl are being weird.. idk maybe.. im being weird..i probably am but w/e idk .. my stomach hurts rly bad.. i ahve nothing to really write about . . i was talking to nikole one day about gay ppl & i want a gay best friend..thats a guy lol .. idk y but i think that would be rly cool haha im retarted but yeah.. i dont like writing in this thing but im bored & idk no 1 rly reads this neway...kelseys bday is soooon .. so i get to see herrr in like 2weeks lol.. shes the best everr.. & it rly sucks she lives so far away now..but when i can drive . which will be never.. il see her more i think hahaahaha wow im bored...yeah im done cause i dk what to talk about k bye<3   i love you josh<3 9.16.o4 We can sing like superstars <3

[15 Sep 2005|02:36pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | sugarcult - pretty girl ] idnt rly have anything to update on cause i didnt do nething l8ly..but uhm yesterday was a bad day.. a rly bad day & i rly wish it never happened but it did so w/e but yeah i dk .. basically idfk hahaha but im rly tired..i slept for like uhm 1 hour? last night..maybe not even that .. & ..  i have to go to laurie today..= /   i dkkk this is pointless..i think im just gunna put some quotes in here that i like cause im bored & i feel like it.. | | | to let go isn't to forget, not think about, or ignore. it doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. letting go isn't winning it isn't losing. it's not about pride it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. it's not giving in or giving up. letting go isn't about loss and it's not defeat. to let go is to cherish memories, but to overcome them & move on  letting go is accepting. letting go is having the courage to accept change the strength to keep moving. letting go is growing up | | the heart is a fragile thing, break it too badly and it may never recover... - dawsons creek<3 | | if we are truely meant to be, then we will find our way back to each other. its as simple as that - dawsons creek<3 1 Danced like their superstarsWe can sing like superstars <3

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